i prayed before writing this blog that my words would convey what my heart is feeling.
when i come back from trips to haiti i am usually sad. everyone reacts in different ways & mine is sadness. i always miss it. i miss my friends there, i miss my CAD kids, i miss church there & i miss the simple way of life. i always know i am going back, but i am still sad.
don't get me wrong, i am so appreciative of my life & how blessed i am, how blessed we all are really.
life gets in the way too many times. it keeps us from the things of God. it keeps us from pursuing our hearts calling. it keeps us from loving the least of these. how many times do we say, "thats not for me" "i am too busy" "i need to clean the house" "i need to- fill in the blank" "i don't have the money right now" "i don't have time for that"
this is our problem. too many "i's"
when did we start putting ourselves & what we want before what God wants for us.
God's way is perfect. All the LORD's promises prove true. He is a shield for all who look to him for protection
we think we have everything figured out. we think we know what is best for us. we think we can always do it on our own, BUT we don't have too. why do we do this? why don't we trust? why don't we truly believe that his plan for us is better than our own?
one thing i love about going to haiti, is that it is a reminder that, jesus alone is enough.
that phrase alone brings me to tears. HE IS ENOUGH.
when your sadness is unbearable- HE IS ENOUGH.
when you have bills & you don't know how you will pay them- HE IS ENOUGH.
when you worry- HE IS ENOUGH.
when you feel like you cannot take anymore- HE IS ENOUGH.
here in america we like to what i call, advertise jesus. we have the fog machines, we have the bright lights, we have the perfect singers & perfect musicians dressed to impress. we have the, "come to church & win an iPad" all for what? to bring more people to church? WHAT? you guys jesus needs none of this. none of it. HE ALONE IS ENOUGH. he doesn't need your perfect building, he doesn't need your fog machines. we give ourselves excuses & say this is what everyone is doing, this is what people want. well you know what they are at church for the wrong reasons. i would rather have 5 people in my church that are TRULY after the lords heart than 3000 that come to church on sunday for the fog, the stage design, or to meet their future date & gossip during the week & leave jesus on the pew. Jesus in his goodness & his sacrifice for us is ENOUGH. if that alone cannot compel someone to search their hearts then what will your fog machine do? he DIED for you but you need a good stage design to see that? we have to sing a secular song on sunday morning so people aren't offended & scared to come back? what has this world come too?
when did we become so spineless. when did we start falling for everything. when did we forget to wake up & say God, what do YOU want for my life? what do YOU want me to do today?
JESUS ALONE IS ENOUGH.
when i am at church in haiti i feel so much of the lords presence. it is so refreshing that i don't want to leave. can you imagine waking up in a little hut, with dirt floors- not knowing where your next meal is going to come from, how your children will get to school, & you come to church in the best clothes you own & your worship the lord like he is right in front of you. you sing louder than the walls can contain & people can probably hear you for miles. THIS is right. they have it figured out. they have learned to wake up & trust the lord every single day. they know that JESUS ALONE IS ENOUGH.
lord, help me. help me to trust you every single day. help me not to worry. help me to love you fearlessly. help me to not be jaded. help me to wake up with you on my heart, live my day with you being present & go to sleep with you on my mind. help me to truly believe that YOU ARE ENOUGH. nothing else in this world truly matters but you. what YOU want for my life. help me to never be luke warm. help me to put you before anything else. YOU ARE ENOUGH.