i have been thinking about a lot of things lately, mainly this phrase that i used to hear my pastor say from the church i grew up in,"pursuit is the proof of desire"
i always think to myself, is what i desire what i am pursuing? are my desires lining up with God's word & what he has called me to do. i finally have that feeling that those 2 things are lining up. i have so much peace lately about the road that i am on, it is like for so long i was going after things that i wanted, or i thought i wanted & i was never happy, never fully satisfied. peace is an amazing feeling, it is just like a wave washing over you- all the doubt just drifting away & your eyes are opened to truth. i get this feeling when i am in haiti, when i am playing with kids, when i am spending time with my brothers & sisters there, when i am at CAD seeing all those beautiful children's smiles & when i am here working on fundraising which can be so aggravating at times, or when i am looking for grants for hours everyday & emailing people about helping these kids get water & better nutrition. even in the times when i feel so empty & like doors aren't opening as fast as i would like them too, i still feel peace. i KNOW that God works everything out for the good of those that love him. those times when i feel empty is a positive thing because the lord can fill me right back up so i can keep on giving. you don't want to spend your life filling yourself up & never giving yourself away right? it is so amazing to know when your pour yourself out he is right there ready to fill you back up, ready to pour out his grace on you, let you sit in his presence & be thankful for all of those times he pulls you through.
i am reminded of that song "fill me up"
when i get in those places where i am filling a little empty i listen to this. i want to be filled with the things of God so i can turn around & empty those things into someone else.
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
so cheers to truth, cheers to God so graciously pointing my heart to desires that are his own. lets be thankful for the days when we fill empty because we know it is an opportunity to let the lord fill us up with joy, with his mercy, with his grace, with his love, with a thankful heart, with forgiveness towards others, a chance for him to mend our hearts where they have been broken, a chance for him to soften our hearts towards the needs of others.
we truly have so much to be thankful for, lets put off complain & truly start thanking him for every little thing that we have.
bondye beni ou,